farewell with suppressed tears, and a sense of loss which was not to be suppressed. "He has his ain hame, and his ain place, and little need of us now, the Lord be praised," the Mistress said to herself as she watched him going down to the boat; "I think I would be real content if he had but a good wife." But still it was with a sigh that she went in again and closed the door upon the departing boat that carried her son back to the world. CHAPTER XLVII. As for Colin and his friend, they went upon their way steadily, with that rare sympathy in difference which is the closest bond of friendship. Lauderdale by this time had lost all the lingerings of youth which had hung long about him, perhaps by right of his union with the fresh and exuberant youth of his brother-in-arms. His gaunt person was gaunter than ever, though, by an impulse of the tenderest pride-not for himself but for his companion-his dress fitted him better, and was more carefully put on than it had ever been during all his life; but his long hair, once so black and wild, was now grey, and hung in thin locks, and his beard, that relic of Italy, which Lauderdale preserved religiously, and had ceased to be ashamed of, was grey also, and added to the somewhat solemn aspect of his long thoughtful face. He was still an inch or two taller than Colin, whose great waves of brown hair, tossed up like clouds upon his forehead, and shining brown eyes, which even now had not quite lost the soft shade of surprise and admiration which had given them such a charm in their earlier years, contrasted strangely with the worn looks of his friend. They were not like father and son, for Lauderdale preserved in his appearance an indefinable air of solitude and of a life apart, which made it impossible to think of him in any such relationship; but perhaps their union was more close and real than even that tie could have made it, since the un wedded childless man was at once young and old, and had kept in his heart a virgin freshness more visionary, and perhaps even more spotless, than that of Colin's untarnished youth-for, to be sure, the young man not only was conscious of that visionary woman in the clouds, but had already solaced himself with more than one love, and still meant to marry a wife like other men, though that was not at present the foremost idea in his mind; whereas, whatever love Lauderdale might have had in that past from which he never drew the veil, it had never been replaced by another, nor involved any earthly hope. This made him naturally more sympathetic than a man who had gone through all the ordinary experiences of life could have been; and at the same time it made him more intolerant of what he supposed to be Colin's inconstancy. As they crossed the borders, and found themselves among the Cumberland hills, Lauderdale approached nearer and nearer to that subject which had been for so long a time left in silence between them. Perhaps it required that refinement of ear natural to a born citizen of Glasgow to recognise that it was 66 English" which was being spoken round them as they advancedbut the philosopher supposed himself to have made that discovery. He recurred to it with a certain pathetic meaning as they went upon their way. They had set out on foot from Carlisle, each with his knapsack, to make their leisurely way to the Lakes; and, when they rested and dined in the humble roadside inn which served for their first resting-place, the plaintive cadence of his friend's voice struck Colin with a certain amuse ment. "They're a' English here,” Lauderdale said, with a tone of sad recollection, as a man might have said in Norway or Russia, hearing for the first time the foreign tongue, and bethinking ' himself of all the dreary seas and long tracts of country that lay between him and home. It might have been pathetic under such circumstances, though the chances are that even then Colin, graceless and fearless, would have laughed; but at present, when the absence was only half a day's march, and the difference of tongue, as we have said, only to be distinguished by an ear fine and native, the sigh was too absurd to be passed over lightly. "I never knew you have the mal du pays before," Colin said with a burst of laughter :-and the patriot himself did not refuse to smile. "Speak English," he said, with a quaint self-contradiction, "though I should say speak Scotch if I was consistent; you needna make your jokes at me. Oh ay, it's awfu' easy laughing. It's no that I'm thinking of; there's nothing out of the way in the association of ideas this time, though they play bonnie pranks whiles. I'm thinking of the first time I was in England, and how awfu' queer it sounded to hear the bits of callants on the road, and the poor bodies at the cottage doors." "The first time you were in England -that was when you came to nurse me like a good fellow as you are," said Colin; "I should have died that time but for my mother and you." "I'm not saying that," said Lauderdale; "you're one of the kind that's awfu' hard to kill-a dour callant like you would have come through a' the same; but it's no that I'm thinking of. There are other things that come to my mind with the sound of the English tongue. Hold your peace, callant, and listen; is there nothing comes back to you, will you tell me, when you hear the like of that?" "I hear a woman talking in very broad Cumberland," said Colin, who notwithstanding began to feel an uncomfortable heat mounting upwards in his face; "you may call it English, if you have a mind. There is some imperceptible difference between that and the Dumfriesshire, I suppose; but I should not like to have to discriminate where the difference lies." As for Lauderdale, he sighed; but without intending it, as it appeared, for he made a great effort to cover his sigh by a yawn, for which latter indulgence he had evidently no occasion, and then he tried a faint little unnecessary laugh, "Look here," said Colin impatiently; "listen to my tract. I want you to give now it is finished; your face to the hills, me your opinion turn this way, with and never mind the voice." "Oh ay," said Lauderdale, with another sigh; "there's nae voice like his ain voice to this callant's ear; it's an awfu' thing to be an author, and above a' a reformer; for you may be sure it's for the sake of the cause, and no because he's written a' that himsel'. Let's hear this grand tract of yours; no that I've any particular faith in that way of working," the philosopher added slowly, settling into his usual mode of talk, without consideration of his companion's impatience; "a book, or a poem, or a tract, or whatever it may be, is no good in this world without an audience. Any man can write a book; that's to say, most men could if they would but take the trouble to try; but, as for the audience, that's different. If it doesna come by nature, I see nae way of manufacturing that; but I'm no objecting to hear what you have got to say," Lauderdale added impartially. It was not encouraging perhaps to the young author; but Colin was sufficiently used by this time to his friend's prelections, and for his own part was very well pleased to escape from memories more perplexing and difficult to manage. It was with this intention that he had taken out No. I. of the Tracts for the Times. If any of the writers of the original series of these renowned compositions could but have looked over the shoulder of the young Scotch minister, and beheld the different fashion of thoughts, the curious fundamental difference which lay underneath, and yet the apparent similarity of intention on the face of it! Rome and the Pope were about as far off as Mecca and the prophet from Colin's ideas. He was not in the least urgent for any infallible standard, nor at all concerned to trace a direct line of descent for himself or his Church; and yet withal his notions were as high and absolute and arbitrary on some points as if he had been a member of the most potent of hierarchies-though this might perhaps be set down to the score of his youth. It would, however, be doing Colin injustice to reproduce here this revolutionary document: to tell the truth, circumstances occurred very soon after to retard the continuation of the series, and, so far as his historian is aware, the publication of this preliminary1 address was only partial. For, to be sure, the young man had still abundance of time before him, and the first and most important thing, as Lauderdale had suggested, was the preparation of the audience-an object which was on the whole better carried out by partial and private circulation than by coming prematurely before the public, and giving the adversary occasion to blaspheme, and perhaps frightening the Kirk herself out of her wits. Having said so much, we may return to the more private and individual aspect of affairs. The two friends were seated, while all this was going on, out of doors, on a stone bench by the grey wall of the cottage inn, in which they had just refreshed themselves with a nondescript meal. The Cumberland hills-at that moment bleaching under the sunshine, showing all their scars and stains in the fulness of the light-stretched far away into the distance, hiding religiously in their depths the sacred woods and waters that were the end of the pilgrimage on which the two friends were bound. Lauderdale sat at leisure and listened, shading the sunshine from his face, and watching the shadows play on the woods and hills; and the same force of imagination which persuaded the unaccustomed traveller that he could detect a difference 1 Numbers I. and II. of the Scotch Tracts for the Times, together with fragments of subsequent numbers uncompleted, will be given, if desired by Colin's friends, in the appendix to the second edition of this biography. of tone in the rude talk he heard in the distance, and that that which was only Cumberland was English, persuaded him also that the sunshine in which he was sitting was warmer than the sunshine at home, and that he was really, as he himself would have described it, "going south." He was vaguely following out these ideas, notwithstanding that he also listened to Colin, and gave him the fullest attention. Lauderdale had not travelled much in his life, nor enjoyed many holidays; and, consequently, the very sense of leisure and novelty recalled to him the one great recreation of his life--the spring he had spent in Italy, with all its vicissitudes, prefaced by the mournful days at Wodensbourne. All this came before Lauderdale's mind more strongly a great deal than it did before that of Colin, because it was to the elder man the one sole and clearly marked escape out of the monotony of a long life-a thing that had occurred but once, and never could occur again. How the Cumberland hills, and the peasant voices in their rude dialect, and the rough stone bench outside the door of a grey limestone cottage, could recall to Lauderdale the olive slopes of Frascati, the tall houses shut up and guarded against the sunshine, and the far-off solemn waste of the Campagna, would have been something unintelligible to Colin. But in the meantime these recollections were coming to a climax in his companion's mind. He gave a great start in the midst of Colin's most eloquent paragraph, and jumped to his feet, crying, "Do you hear that?" with a thrill of excitement utterly inexplicable to the astonished young man and then Lauderdale grew suddenly ashamed of himself, and took his seat again, abashed, and felt that it was needful to explain. "Do I hear what?" said Colin; and, as this interruption occurred just at the moment when he supposed he had roused his hearer to a certain pitch of excitement and anxiety, by his account of the religious deficiencies of Scotland, which he was on the point of relieving by an able exposition of the possibilities of reform, it may be forgiven to him if he spoke with a little asperity. Such a disappointment is a trying experience for the best of men. "What is it, for Heaven's sake?" said the young man, forgetting he was a minister; and, to tell the truth, Lauderdale was so much ashamed of himself that he felt almost unable to explain. 29 "She's singing something, that's a', said the confused philosopher. "I'm an awfu' haveril, Colin. There's some things I canna get out of my head. Never you mind; a' that's admirable," said the culprit, with a certain deprecatory eagerness. "I'm awfu' anxious to see how you get us out of the scrape. Go on." Colin was angry, but he was human, and he could not but laugh at the discomfiture and conciliatory devices of his disarmed critic. "I am not going to throw away my pearls," he said; "since your mind is in such a deplorable state you shall hear no more to-day, Oh, no. I understand the extent of your anxiety. And so here's Lauderdale going the way of all flesh. Who is she? and what is she singing? The best policy is to make a clean breast of it," said the young man, laughing; "and then, perhaps, I may look over the insult you have been guilty of to myself." But Lauderdale was in no mood for laughing. "I'm not sure that it wouldna be the best plan to go on," he said; "for notwithstanding, I've been giving my best attention; and maybe if I was to speak out what was in my heart--" "Speak it out," said Colin. He was a little affronted, but he kept his composure. As he folded up his papers and put them away in his pocket-book, he too heard the song which Lauderdale had been listening to. It was only a country-woman singing as she went. about her work, and there was no marked resemblance in either the voice or the song to anything he had heard before. All that could be said was that the voice was young and fresh, and that the melody was sad, and had the quality of suggestiveness, which is often wanting to more elaborate music. He knew what was coming when he put up his papers in his pocket-book, and it occurred to him that perhaps it would be well to have the explanation over and be done with it, for he knew how persistent his companion was. a "It's no that there's much to say," said Lauderdale, changing his tone; man like me, that's little used to change, gets awfu' like a fool in his associations. There's naething that ony reasonable creature could see in thae hills, and a' the sheep on them, that should bring that to my mind; and, as you say, callant, it's Cumberland they're a' speaking, and no English. It's just a kind of folly that men are subject to that live their lane. I canna but go a' through again, from the beginning to Well, I sup pose," said Lauderdale with a sigh, "what you and me would call the end." "What any man in his senses would call the end," said Colin, beginning to cut his pencil with some ferocity, which was the only occupation that occurred. to him for the moment; "I don't suppose there can be any question as to what you mean. Was it to be expected that I would court rejection over again for the mere pleasure of being rejected? -as you know I have been, both by letter and in person; and then, as if even that was not enough, accused of fortunehunting; when Heaven knows -" Here Colin stopped short, and cut his pencil so violently that he cut his finger, which was an act which convicted him of using unnecessary force, and of which, accordingly, he was ashamed. "It is no that I was thinking of," said Lauderdale, "I was minding of the time when we a' met, and the bit soft English voice. It's no that I'm fond of the English, or their ways," continued the philosoper. "We're maybe no so well in our ain country, and maybe we're better; I'll no say. It's a question awfu' hard to settle. But, if ever we a' foregather again, I cannot think there will be that difference. It wasna to say musical that I ken of, but it was aye soft and pleasant-maybe ower soft, Colin, for the like of you-and with a bit yielding tone in it, as if the heart would break sooner than make a stand for its own way. I mind it real weel," said Lauderdale, with a sigh. "As for the father, no doubt there was little to be said in his favour. But, after a', it wasna him that you had any intention to marry. And yon Sabbath-day after he was gone, poor man!-when you and me didna ken what to do with ourselves till the soft thing came out of her painted cha'amer, and took the guiding of us into her hands. It's that I was thinking of," said Lauderdale, fixing his eyes on a far off point upon the hills, and ending his musing with a sigh. Colin sighed, too, for sympathy-he could not help it. The scene came before him as his friend spoke. He thought he could see Alice, in her pallor and exhaustion, worn to a soft shadow, in her black dress, coming into the bare Italian room in the glorious summer day, which all the precautions possible could not shut out from the house of mourning with her prayer-book in her hand; and then he remembered how she had chidden him for reading another lesson than that appointed for the day. It was in the height of his own revolutionary impulses that this thought struck him; and he smiled to himself in the midst of his sigh, with a tender thought for Alice, and a passing wonder for himself, what change might have been wrought upon him if that dutiful little soul had actually become the companion of his life. Colin was not the kind of man who can propose to himself to form his wife's mind, and rule her thoughts, and influence her without being sensible of her influence in return. That was not the order of domestic affairs in Ramore; and naturally he judged the life that might have been, and even yet might be, by that standard. The Mistress's son did not understand having a nullity, or a shadow of himself, for a wife; and insensibly he made his way back from the attendrissement into which Lauderdale's musings had led him, into half-amused speculation as to the effect Alice and her influence might have had upon him by this time. "If that had happened," he said with a smile, bursting out, as was usual to him when Lauderdale was his companion, at that particular point of his thoughts which required expression, without troubling himself to explain how he came there "if that had happened,” said Colin, with the conscious smile of old, "I wonder what sort of fellow I should have been by this time? I doubt if I should have had any idea of disturbing the constituted order of affairs. Things are always for the best, you perceive, as everybody says. A man who has any revolutionary work to do must be free and alone. But don't let us talk any more of that-I don't like turning back upon the road. But for that feeling I should have settled the business before now about poor Arthur's 'Voice from the Grave.' "I was aye against that title," said Lauderdale, " if he would have paid any attention; but you're a' the same, you young callants; it's nae more a voice from the grave than mine is. It's a voice from an awfu' real life, that had nae intention to lose a minute that was permitted. It would be something, to be sure that he was kept informed, and had a pleasure in his book; but then, so far as I can judge, he maun ken an awfu' deal better by this time-and maybe up there they're no heeding about a third edition. It's hard to say; he was so terrible like himself up to the last moment; I canna imagine, in my own mind, that he's no like himself still. There should be a heap of siller," said Lauderdale, "by this time; and sooner or later you'll have to open communication, and let them ken." "Yes," said Colin, with a momentary look of sullenness and repugnance; and then he added, in a lighter tone, "heaps of money never came out of a religious publisher's hands. A third edition does not mean the same thing with them as with other people. Of course, it must be set right some time or other. had better set off, I can tell you, and not talk idle talk like this, if we mean to get to our journey's end to-night." We "Oh, ay," said Lauderdale, "you're aye in a hurry, you young callants. As |