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don my iniquities ; my very re. day, and been more than usualpentance needs thy divine clean- | ly comfortable.” sing. Bless the Lord, O my After describing a scene of soul.”

| unusual temptation thro' which Nov. 3d. “ Surely I should she passed, she writes, “ I beblush to treat a fellow mortal, as gan to feel more calm ; and beI treat my God, after such spe- gan to sing. I was confined to cial tokens of his loving kindness. no words that I had ever heard. Oh, that my dear Lord would I sung of the glory, majesty, teach me to bear the cross." beauty, holiness, sovereignty and

Nov. 17. 6 It is now a vear justice of Christ. I thought I since I publicly gave myself up could ascribe glory, and often to God. Do I repent of the repeated it. Glory, glory, that act ? No; but I have reason to God did manifest the awful atconfess with shame, that I have tribute, justice upon his rebelbeen an unprofitable servant. lious worms. I had a fear of Will the retrospect of every

disturbing the family, or I know year, were I to live many, afford hot now, long should have so little satisfaction? Oh, that I sung." might be enabled to devote my

June 7th. “ Grace, grace, has self wholly to the Lord, and seek :

he Lord, and seek I attended every step of my life : no other interest but that of the So much health, oh, inestimable Redeemer. Enable me to set

of blessing. Had some nearness out brewedly in the strength of to the throne of grace this mornthe Lord."

ing in my retired moments. I

find it the desire of my heart April, 1801. During a disor- that the late visitation of provi: der attended with threatening dence may not be in vain to incy symptoms; she writes ; “ I have and that I may have entire and felt the greatest desire that God perfect submission to God's would not suffer his chastising will rod to be in vain-was even led The following resolutions are to plead with him to chastise me | found in her diary, written in the yet more, and give me strength beginning of the year, 1802. to bear it, till I shall become an 5 Resolve 1. Resolve never obedient child. Have reason to to judge a matter before I hear bless God, that I feel so few mur

it, and then to be very cautious murs arise in my heart, whilst

st what I say, for my unruly tongue I might have been left to des

hast cost me tears not a few. %. prise, to wonder and to perish. I

By the grace of God to mortify would not have it left to myself a selfish spirit which I find too whether to get well, or die of

of much predominates in my heart. this disorder. It is perfectly 1 3. Never to suffer an angry or right as it is, and Oh, that I

hasty expression to escape my might never be left to view God lips, till I have had time to say as a hard master.”

to myself, is this for the glory Soon after she writes, “Sure- of God? 4. To observe this ly no one bas, or can have grea- most precious text of scripture, ter cause for thankfulness than “ Take heed and beware of covmyself. I have been able to at-etousness, for a man's life contend meeting both parts of the sisteth not in the abundance

which he possetheth. 5. To i perfect peace, whose mind is appropriate six pence of my stayed on thee. But, O my Jeearnings each week that I am sus, I am utterly unable to trust able to work to charitable pur- in thee, unless thou art pleased poses."

to give the power. Oh, let me · Nov. 13th: “ Have enjoyed never more go in my own such a week with regard to re- strength, for I am as helpless ligion as I have not for a long as the child that never walked." time before ; and if it can be During the months of August ascribed to any mean, it is to and September of this year, she early rising, and denying my- mentions several religious conself of sleep, for the sake offerences of females, where she communion with God. Oh, how enjoyed familiar freedom and delightful to be indulged in the fervency in prayer; where her least degrec with his presence. I graces were much enlivened, His service is perfect freedom and where the power of vital

January 1st, 1803, “ This is religion was very visible. the first time I have dated 1803. Oct.“ Monday morning, As it is the beginning of a new arose very early, sometime beyear, I would it were the begin-fore day light appeared, and enning of a new course of life. Oh, I joyed sweet communion. None why is my love so cold to the dear but such as try it, know the Saviour! Oh, how does it magni- pleasure of being alone with fy the riches of the dying love of God, and of reading and prayChrist, that mercy can consisting. O my dear Lord, suffer ently be extended to such a hell me not to wound that holy deserving creature as I am ! cause, which I dare to hope I Oh, that my head were waters, / sincerely love." and mine eyes fountains of tears, Nov. 5. • Two days more that I'might weep day and night and my school closes. Surely for my cruel sins. Oh, the a- I never saw the kind providence bominable sin of ingratitude of of God more conspicuous, at which I am daily guilty.” any time of my life, than for

Jan. 30. “ About an hour six months past. I think I nevsince, my father entered the er enjoyed so great a degree of eternal world. I had reason to solid habitual peace, and never bless God, when his soul was before in my life did I take up released, and as I would humbly so heavy a cross." . hope, received to mansions al Nov. 17. “ It is now four bove. O Lord Jesus, all we years since I united with the now ask is, that his death may church and visibly united with be sanctified to prepare us, for the people of God. Surely goodour own dissolution, Oh, teach ness and mercy have followed us to live in the fear of God.” me all my days. Make me, O

March, 1803. « Blessed be Lord, to understand my errol's : God that I have peace ! world-cleanse thou me from secret ly circumstances have not pro- | faults. I have abundant reason cured it ; it is of the sovereign to bless God for what he hath grace of my dear Lord. O my done for my soul, the year past. dear Saviour, it is eminently In no one year since I professed. true, that thou wilt keep him in religion, have I been enabled to

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make so great proficiency in the fines and dignifies the soul ! Had divine life, as the past. O my |I the tongue of an Angel, and dear Lord, my wish, my pre- the speech that seraphs use, I vailing wish is to be entirely could not tell its blessings, and conformed to thyself: let me the wonders of redeeming love." have no will of my own. Let Near the close of this month the things of the world grow she writes thus, concerning the less in my esteem, whilst the death of an intimate friend, an things of eternity brighten in eminently pious child of God : my view.”

“ Have this day attended the re: Jan. 29, 1804. “ This day mains of my dear friend Mr. S. concludes my 26th year. O to the grave. Many circumstanLord, suitably affect my heart ces of his faithful friendship, with a sense of thy goodness ; rushed into mind, occasioning a and as thou hast brought me to flood of tears, which were some this anniversary birth-day, en relief to my mind. I thought if able me to make a renewed ten- Jesus wept at the grave of Lazder of my heart, and all the poi arus, surely I might weep at the ers of my mind to thee. Abun-grave of this, in some respects, dant has been thy goodness to my spiritual father. O Lord, me the year past. Not a day holy, just and true are thy ways have I lost by sickness, and ne--thou workest like thyself, and ver have I had a more abiding manifestest the hand of a sovesense of divine things, which is reign. Oh, sanctify this death indeed an inestimable blessing." to the living-awake in us a spi· Feb. “ Have been to visit a rit of prayer. Help, Lord, for number of my poor sick neigh- the godly man ceaseth, the faithbors ; felt a desire that God ful fail from among the chilwould grant me his presence, dren of men.” that I might not prove unprofi- May 3d. “ Attended meeting, table. Nothing more convinces and united in celebrating the me of my ingratitude, than when Lord's supper. I dare to hope I see those who are laboring un- it was a profitable season to my der a thousand real difficulties, soul. The scene was affecting that I should afflict myself with on account of the recent loss of So many imaginary ones. O a most valuable member. Anosin, thou procuring cause of all ther consideration sensibly afmy trouble ! were I more holy, fected me, viz. That it was probI should be more happy. Lord ably the last time that I should Jesus, cleanse my polluted soul, commune with this particular and make it a dwelling fit for church. I earnestly intreated for thee. It is my constant petition this pastor and people, and that that God would revive in me a l there might be great additions spirit of prayer, and if not in me to this church. Father, if particularly, that his children thou shalt see fit to remove me may be stirred up." . from this church, watch over me

- Apr.“ Oh, the blessings of the for good; enable me to let my religion of Jesus ! There is a light so shine as thou hast comcomfort in casting my burden manded ; and make me useful even of sins upon the Lord. O l in whatever station thou shalt the gospel ! how it raises, re. see fit to place me.” VOL. VI. NO. 6.

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which hè possetheth. 5. To perfect peace, whose mind is appropriate six pence of my stayed on thee. But, O my Jes earnings each week that I am sus, I am utterly unable to trust able to work to charitable pur- in thee, unless thou art pleased poses."

to give the power. Oh, let me · Nov. 13th: “ Have enjoyed never more go in my own such a week with regard to re- strength, for I am as helpless ligion as I have not for a long as the child that never walked." time before ; and if it can be During the months of August ascribed to any mean, it is to and September of this year, she early rising, and denying my mentions several religious conself of sleep, for the sake offerences of females, where she communion with God. Oh, how enjoyed familiar freedom and delightful to be indulged in the fervency in prayer ; where her least degrec with his presence. graces were much enlivened, His service is perfect freedom. and where the power of vital

January 1st, 1803, « This is religion was very visible. the first time I have dated 1803.) Oct. '“ Monday morning, As it is the beginning of a new arose very early, sometime beyear, I would it were the begin- / fore day light appeared, and enning of a new course of life. Oh, joyed sweet communion. None why is my love so cold to the dear but such as try it, know the Saviour ! Oh, how does it magni- pleasure of being alone with fy the riches of the dying love of God, and of reading and prayChrist, that mercy can consist-ing. O my dear Lord, suffer ently be extended to such a hell me not to wound that holy deserving creature as I am ! cause, which I dare to hope I Oh, that my head were waters, sincerely love." and mine eyes fountains of tears, Nov. 5. " Two days more that I'might weep day and night and my school closes. Surely for my cruel sins. Oh, the aI never saw the kind providence bominable sin of ingratitude of of God more conspicuous, at which I am daily guilty.” any time of my life, than for

Jan. 30. 6 About an hour six months past. I think I nevsince, my father entered the er enjoyed so great a degree of eternal world. I had reason to solid habitual peace, and never bless God, when his soul was before in my life did I take up released, and as I would humbly so heavy a cross." hope, received to mansions a- Nov. 17. " It is now four bove. O Lord Jesus, all we years since I united with the now ask is, that his death may church and visibly united with be sanctified to prepare us, for the people of God. Surely goodour own dissolution, Oh, teach ness and mercy have followed us to live in the fear of God.” me all my days. Make me, O

March, 1803. “ Blessed be Lord, to understand my erroi's : God that I have peace ! world-cleanse thou me from secret ly circumstances have not pro-faults. I have abundant reason cured it ; it is of the sovereignto bless God for what he hath grace of my dear Lord. O my done for my soul, the year past. dear Saviour, it is eminently In no one year since I professed true, that thou wilt keep him in religion, have I been enabled to

make so great proficiency in the fines and dignifies the soul ! Had divine life, as the past. O my I the tongue of an Ángel, and dear Lord, my wish, my pre- the speech that seraphs use, I vailing wish is to be entirely could not tell its blessings, and conformed to thyself: let me the wonders of redeeming love." have no will of my own. Let Near the close of this month the things of the world grow she writes thus, concerning the less in my esteem, whilst the death of an intimate friend, an things of eternity brighten in eminently pious child of God: my view.". i

“ Have this day attended the rei Jan. 29, 1804. “ This day mains of my dear friend Mr. S. concludes my 26th year. Oto the grave. Many circumstanLord, suitably affect my heart ces of his faithful friendship, with a sense of thy goodness ; rushed into mind, occasioning a and as thou hast brought me to flood of tears, which were some this anniversary birth-day, en- / relief to my mind. I thought if able me to make a renewed ten- Jesus wept at the grave of Lazder of my heart, and all the pow- arus, surely I might weep at the érs of my mind to thee. Abun- grave of this, in some respects, dant has been thy goodness to my spiritual father. O Lord, me the year past. Not a day holy, just and true are thy ways have I lost by sickness, and ne-1-thou workest like thyself, and ver have I had a more abiding manifestest the hand of a sovesense of divine things, which is reign. Oh, sanctify this death indeed an inestimable blessing." to the living-awake in us a spi· Feb. 6 Have been to visit a rit of prayer. Help, Lord, for number of my poor sick neigh- the godly man ceaseth, the faithbors ; felt a desire that God | ful fail 'from among the chilwould grant me his presence, dren of men." that I might not prove unprofi- May 3d.“ Attended meeting, table. Nothing more convinces and united in celebrating the me of my ingratitude, than when Lord's supper. I dare to hope I see those who are laboring un- it was a profitable season to my der a thousand real difficulties, soul. The scene was affecting that I should afflict myself with on account of the recent loss of so many imaginary ones. O a most valuable member. Anosin, thou procuring cause of all ther consideration sensibly afmy trouble ! were I more holy, | fected me, viz. That it was probI should be more happy. Lord ably the last time that I should Jesus, cleanse my polluted soul, commune with this particular and make it a dwelling fit for church. I earnestly intreated for thee. It is my constant petition this pastor and people, and that that God would revive in me a there might be great additions spirit of prayer, and if not in me to this church. : 0 Father, if particularly, that his children thou shalt see fit to remove me may be stirred up."

from this church, watch over me Apr.“ Oh, the blessings of the for good; enable me to let my religion of Jesus ! There is a light so shine as thou hast comcomfort in casting my burden manded ; and make me useful even of sins upon the Lord. 0 in whatever station thou shalt the gospel ! how it raises, re- see fit to place me." VOL. VI. NO. 6.

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