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48. Resolved, constantly, with the utmost niceness and diligence, and the strictest scrutiny, to be looking into the state of my soul, that I may know whether I have truly an interest in Christ or no; that when I come to die, I may not have any negligence respecting this to repent of,
50. Resolved, I will act so as I think I shall judge would have been best, and most prudent, when I come into the future world.
52. I frequently hear persons in old age say how they would live, if they were to live their lives over again : Resolved, that I will live just so as I can think I shall wish I had done, supposing I live to old age.
54. Whenever I hear any thing spoken in conversation of any person, if I think it would be praiseworthy in me, Resolved to endeavor to imitate it.
55. Resolved, to endeavor to my utmost to act as I can think I should do, if I had already seen the happiness of hearen, and hell torments.
56. Resolved, never to give over, nor in the least to slacken my fight with my corruptions, howeyer unsuccessful I
57. Resolved, when I fear misfortunes and adversities, to examine whether I have done my duty, and resolve to do it ; and let it be just as Providence orders it, I will as far as I can, be concerned about nothing but my duty, and my sin.
62. Resolved, never to do any thing but duty; and then, according to Eph. vi. 6....8, do it willingly and cheerfully as unto the Lord, and not to man ; knowing that whatever goodthing any man doth, the same shall he receive of the Lord.
65. Resolved, to exercise myself much in this all my life long, viz. with the greatest openness to declare my ways to God, and lay open my soul to him ; all my sins, temptations, difficulties, sorrows, fears, hopes, desires, and every thing, and every circumstance ; according to Dr. Manton's 27th ser« mon on the 119th psalm.
67. Resolved, after afflictions, to inquire, What I am the better for them ; what good I have got, and what I might have. got by them." VOL. I.
Extracts from his Diary.
Though Mr. EDWARDS wrote his Diary for his own pri. vate use, exclusively, it is not apprehended that the following extracts are unfairly exposed to public view. Whatever is calculated to do good, and is perfectly consistent with an author's real reputation, may be published with honor, whatever his design might be while writing. Besides, what Mr. EdWARDS wished to have effectually concealed from every eye but his own, he wrote in a particular short hand. After have ing written pretty much in that character, he adds this remark in long hand : “ Remember to act according to Prov. xii. 23. A prudent man concealeth knowledge."
“ Saturday, Dec. 22, 1722. This day, revived by God's Holy Spirit. Affected with a sense of the excellency of holiness. Folt more exercise of love to Christ than usual. Have also felt sensible repentance for sin, because it was committed against so merciful and good a God. This night, made the 37th Resolution.
Sabbath Night, Dec. 22. Made the 38th Resolution.
Monday, Dec. 24. Higher thoughts than usual of the excellency of Jesus Christ and his kingdom.
Wednesday, Jan. 2, 1723. Dull. I find by experience, that let me make resolutions, and do what I will, it is all nothing, and to no purpose at all, without the motions of the Spirit of God : For if the Spirit of God should be as much withdrawn from me always, as for the week past, notwithstanding all I do, I should not grow ; but should languish, and miserably fade away. There is no dependence upon myself. It is to no purpose to resolve, except we depend on the grace of God; for if it were not for his mere grace, one might be a very good man one day, and a very wicked one the next.
Sabbath, Jan. 6, at night. Much concerned about the improvement of precious time. Intend to live in continual mortification, without ceasing, as long as in this world.
Tuesday, Jan. 8, in the morning. Higher thoughts than usual of the excellency of Christ, and felt an unusual repentance for sin therefrom.
Wednesday, Jan. 9, at night. Decayed. I am sometimes apt to think, I have a great deal more of holiness than I really have. I find, now and then, that abominable corruption which is directly contrary to what I read respecting eminent Christians. How deceitful is my heart! I take up a strong resolution, but how soon does it weaken !
Thursday, Jan. 10, about noon. Reviving. It is a great dishonor to Christ, in whom I hope I have an interest, to be uneasy at my worldly state and condition : When I see the prosperity of others, and that all things go easy with them; when the world is smooth to them, and they are happy in ma. ny respects, and very prosperous, or are advanced to much honor, &c. to envy them, or be the least uneasy at it ; or even to wish for the same prosperity, and that it would ever be so with me. Wherefore concluded, always to rejoice in every one's prosperity, and to expect for myself no happiness of that nature as long as I live ; but reckon upon afflictions, and betake myself entirely to another happiness.
I think I find myself much more sprightly and healthy, both in body and mind, for my selfdenial in eating, drinking, and sleeping. I think it would be advantageous every morning to consider my business and temptations ; and what sins I shall be exposed to that day : And to make a resolution how to improve the day, and to avoid those sins. And so at the beginning of every week, month and year. I never knew before what was meant by not setting our hearts upon these things. It is, not to care about them, depend upon them, afflict ourselves much with fears of losing them, or please ourselves with expectation of obtaining them, or hope of their continuance. At night made the 41st Resolution.
Saturday, Jan. 12, in the morning. I have this day solemnly renewed my baptismal covenant and sel dedication, which I renewed when I was received into the communion of the church. I have been before God; and have given myself, all that I am and have to God, so that I am not in any respect
my own : I can claim no right in myself, no right in this un. derstanding, this will, these affections that are in me; neither have I any right to this body, or any of its members : No right to this tongue, these hands, nor feet : No right to these senses, these eyes, these ears, this smell or taste. I have given myself clear away, and have not retained any thing as my own.
I have been to God this morning, and told him that I gave myself wholly to him. I have given every power to him ; so that for the future, I will challenge or claim no right in myself, in any respect. I have expressly promised him, and do now promise Almighty God, that by his grace I will not. I have this morning told him, that I did take him for my whole portion and felicity, looking on nothing else as any part of my happiness, nor acting as if it were ; and his law for the constant rule of my obedience ; and would fight with all my might against the world, the flesh, and the devil, to the end of my life. And did believe in Jesus Christ, and receive him as a prince and a saviour ; and would adhere to the faith and obedience of the gospel, how hazardous and difficult soever the prosession and practice of it may be. That I did receive the blessed Spirit as my teacher, sanctifier and only comforter; and cherish all his motions to enlighten, purify, confirm, comfort, and assist me. This I have done. And I pray God, for the sake of Christ, to look upon it as a selfdedication ; and to receive me now as entirely his own, and deal with me in all respects as such ; whether he afflicts me or prospers me, or
whatever be pleases to do with me, who am his. Now, hence> forth I am not to act in any respect as my own.
I shall act as my own, if I ever make use of any of my powers to any thing that is not to the glory of God, or do not make the glorifying of him
my whole and entire business ; if I murmur in the least at afflictions ; if I grieve at the prosperity of others ; if I am any way uncharitable ; if I'am angry because of injuries ; if I revenge my own cause ; if I do any thing purely to please myself, or avoid any thing for the sake of my ease, or omit any thing because it is great selfdenial ; if I trust to myself; if I take any of the praise of any good that I do, or rather God does by me ; or if I am any way proud. This day made the 42 and 430 Resolutions.
Monday, Jan. 14. The dedication I made of myself to my God, on Saturday last, has been exceeding useful to me. I thought I had a more spiritual insight into the scripture while reading the 8th chapter to the Romans, than ever in my life before. Great instances of mortification are deep wounds given to the body of sin, hard blows that make him stagger and reel ; we thereby get firm ground and footing against him. While we live without great instances of mortification and selfdenial, the old man keeps whereabouts he was ; for he is sturdy and obstinate, and will not stir for small blows. After the greatest mortifications, I always find the greatest comfort. Supposing there was never but one complete Christian, in all respects, of a right stamp, having Christianity shining in its true lustre, at a time in the world ; resolved, to act just as I would do, if I strove with all my might to be that one, that should be in
time. Tuesday, Jan. 15. It seemed yesterday, the day before, and Saturday, that I should always retain the same resolutions to the same height, but alas, how soon do I decay! 0, how weak, how infirm, how unable to do any thing am I ! What a poor, inconsistent, miserable wretch, without the assistance of God's Spirit! While I stand, I am ready to think I stand in my own strength ; and am ready to triumph over my enemies, as if it were I myself that caused them to flee ; when alas ! I am but a poor infant, upheld by Jesus Christ ; who holds me up, and gives me liberty to smile to see my enemies flee, when he drives them before me ; and so I laugh, as though I myself did it, when it is only Jesus Christ leads me along, and fights himself against my enemies. And now the Lord has a little left me, how weak do I find myself! 0, let it teach me to depend less on myself, to be more liumble, and to give more of the praise of my ability to Jesus Christ. The heart of man is deceitful above all thi.gs, and desperately wicked, who can know it?
Saturday, Feb. 16. I do certainly know that I love holi- s ness, such as the gospel requires. At night. I have been neg